happy birthday!
Friday, June 1, 2007
first of all.. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY to my dearest gal- pingting!!! i am very sorry that i forgot to countdown.. ><>< really hope to cya soon!!and hope your wishes will come true =)
track trng today..so many people were late.. honestly,the team is quite ill-disciplined. Punctuality is not a virtue that is being emphasized. i think thomas will shout even more vulgarities at the state of this track team. lol.. striding was alright.. but only completed 3 laps due to a sudden downpour. we proceed to do a special training- pull tire and run. lol.. quite fun.. thou i did if do excessively, will spoilt your kidney =x hee. a guy made a very funny statement. "by the rate we are going,next week we are going to pull a car. further then, we will be going changi airport to train. pull aeroplane!" haha.. but i am experiencing irritaing muscle pain.. haii.
after that went je lib to borrow tapes for PW and then later proceed to CSS to take my cert. did not get to see much teachers.. only waved to Chng. haha. saw mr Leong..but just a brief glance.. btw mrs teo car plate no. is 2823. haha. just a random news. miss css lar.. think this is a phrase all people go thru.. missing their sec sch and longing the past. the easygoing days.. back then you will find your days much suffocated.. but to the You now, it is nothing.. cant compare at all.. i like css feeling.. so much so that i wanna go back as a teacher in the future.. but i dunno what to teach.. and i don want to bring harm to my students.. teacher is a noble job.. thou i dunno why some irresponsible ppl are undertaking this position now,roaming around causing harm,dampening students' passion for school.
saw some juniors..all asked why i go jj w 10.. i know there are a lot of better ones who are in jj currently. but maybe you guys are excelling now..so its alright.BUT. I AM NOT. i am not a clever person, so i need good resources to bring out the whatever little potential.and there isnt much here. except a very cool teacher who has excellent leadership qualities. but i am not working with him in any aspect. juniors asked..why didnt go ac.. i told them i sort of regretted my choice of not putting ac as 2nd choice. NOT THAT jj is not good. but.. i just wanna get into a better jc! 'A's are crucial alright... actually i have another regret(yesyes i have alot of regrets in life). not choosing the poly route. but just that i dunno what industry to enter.. business hotel mgtmt banking finance etc..
had not done any work yet,cos was busy reading that hell thick book for PW. sickening. like i can understand. i proposed to clear all by 2nd week,so the another 2 weeks will be for revision. but looks like it cannot be achieve.. rahh..
another thorn in the flash is od.. getting busier and trickier. the artist concert that i am supposed to be in charged is not on anymore..but there is still a smaller scale concert.but i am not i-c.. haii.. now in log comm..under marcus.. gotta tie up ALOT of operations issue.. which i DUNNO how to do!! haii.. ok la i admit i am a noob alright.. i dunno such stuff..! wanna pon the meeting tml laaa!! haii irresponsibility sinking in =(
sub-normal. thats what i am. i am smart. but that statement does not stand ANYMORE. it fade away together with my graduation from css. perhaps i will not feel this inferiority if i am in anglo or national. as in if i were in that 2 place,i will only experience acad inferiority. now i am feeling all kinds- acad,track,od,friends(will elab below).
high-achievers.elites. there are some people that i respect greatly. cos they are the kind of real smart. despite the very much busy schedule they had,MUCH MORE busy than mine. egs. joanne. she is one gal that will go very far in life. perhaps such common high expectations hold by everyone on her is giving her pressure. but the pressure keeps her going on too.(but gal,do take a breather yea?) Dr Khor. i will call u that in a few years time ya? +)
AllanT. thou i only know him as yl's friend, but he is doing extremely well in so many areas. acad,x-try,music. almost perfect. and he is cool and compose too. truly all-rounder. just like ac is .
fahmi. just get to know from siqi that he is still working at mac ev sunday!!wa.. some more he is from canoeing,a super hiong cca that most probably train 4/5 times a week. with such tight training and rigor acad, he can still manage! and i suppose doing well too! steady steady..
how bout me then?
i lacked the life skills to survive in this 21st century. i really dunno how to speak up. to me, i feeling that the ability to communicate your ideas across fluently and impressing upon others with your views or sharp observations is utterly vital. very essential. i am now still in a very much protected environment. once i leave this in a few years time and get thrown into the working society, i will feel the full blow of the impact. that can possibly rip me apart. yes.. the extreme extent.
why did i said friends above.. it is true that it is better not to work with your friends for PW. the relationship will turn sore. not every1 can tolerate my level of seriousness,strictness and my lack of understanding. cos i keep pressing people to get the job done b4 the deadline. i don wanna fall behind schedule,after the horrific memories of sec2 IPW,pia-ing all night just b4 the day of submission. i am sorry for my lack of understanding. but i hope sometimes you all can show some understanding to me too.... like sending me alone to nj to execute the survey. so what if i have many friends there. if that is the case ev1 just go to a jc by yourself which has your friends in to execute it. if you all can explain the rationale behind such arrangement, i will gladly accept it. but, no one offer a valid one. okay.. let begones be begones.(er did i spell correctly?lol) i hope no one will bear any grudge against me as i really would not do so too. i don wanna spoil a relationship just for a very useless PW.useless cos we will never use it and impractical.
one week almost gone. nothing done. i must get studies back on track,since i accumulate all my doubts during the term. i wanna mug..but still gotta read finish that bloody book. gee.
wanna go out with pingting soon leh. haii. alway a very happy and enjoyable trip with her =) perhaps some distance is a good thing too. wanna go out with yZ too yeh,my psy doc. hahas.
alright takkaire =)Labels: css, me.., OD, PW
--Merci tout le monde--
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