thats our class board cum cny deco!! the color combi is quie badly chosen by me! lol look like funeral! it resembles those paper boy and girl burnt to those dead ones! =.= the time doing it reminds me of 4-1 cny deco.. the one when we (or some) put in tremendous effort. the one when yj was very stressed up cos he needs to maintain 4-1 winning strike. lols. but too bad sia.. i don have any photos nor much impression left for the deco.. only remember the "class of prosperity" and the checker design. thts why u see the above has checker! haha.. but it was crudely done eh. haha, but it was the fruits of our labour. and once again, it only the efforts from some. i guess this is inevitable in any organisation.

any 4-1 who still have our class pic / cny pic, pls mail me! =) 6:53 PM

Some correction to be made!

CSS only have 23 5a1s and above, not 23 5a1s. Hmm.. think that is quite bad compared to the 52 from 06 batch. But nevertheless, we are still 0n the rise. gogogo!

Time is passing fast now. I'm glad that i realised it. Yar, in the past, i don't! I just lived blindly.


I really hate the short term memory i have. 11:01 PM

wow the release of this year's O level result is so fast!

COMMONWEALTH did proud again! muahahah!

1 9A1s
5 8A1s
23 5A1s

wohoh! we are really on the rise! 2005 was the strongest in producing top scorers while 2007 was best in producing best overall result. 2006?? best in everything la. hahaha

oh ya, my sis L1r5 is 16, r4 13. wow i am surprise! i was thinking that she may not be even make it to poly. haha. oh hope she knows what to do!

Commonwealth pride =) 7:38 PM

why always get headache after running the NTU route! twice.. 5:41 PM

Queen - jjc Jayne!
King - rjc Parker

jj's girl won inter jc pageant for 2 years in a row le. this years' jayne is realli CHIO. but i never see her in jj b4 lehh!! -.- i wonder why is it not leonard that rep jj! or the "sing loon".

hmm i think we are giving people the impression that jj has lotsa chio girls! hahaa.. hmm.. this yr my batch.. not really leh.. there are A FEW that are okays la.. but too short! oh my we are going to defeat that tradition =x 7:20 PM

how are you living your life?

you experienced and witnessed things that bring you feelings. how we response is vital in determining how we feel for living. actually, everyone more or less experience the same issues in life. just a matter of how we react, and that make a whole lot of difference.

i'm a downright pessimist. i said earlier on to live a colourful eighteen, but now being tied down by emotion affairs. its not about him. its about class.

i'm the odd one out. we have 15 in class, splitting along the fault line into econs gang and physics gang. i'm now in the so called physics gang aka Fan3 Dui4 Dang3, though i take econs. initially was with ben and jer, but due to PW issues, i guess we can't go back to the situation back in the first 1 month i'm in jj.

seriously, i don have good friends. yes, many acquaintances, but not true friends (excluding tyl). ah bao said that when she leave njc, she won't miss that place. me too. i won't. but now i'm something call chairman, i've the extra responsibility to bond the class. if by true means i cant, i got to do it the superficial way then.

you out there, do u live your life with truth or falsity? i'm living with truth. i can't lie to myself. i can't lie that we are united, i can't lie that we are understanding, i can't lie that we are helpful. something is happening in the class that i thought will only happen in top jcs. there is secrecy in learning, not notes sharing. yeah you will share with your good frens thats all. i'm a little guilty of that during secondary times. so time have changed, i have become a lone chap/ solitaire soul that is in association with no one. there is no one that i can REALLY pour things out blatantly. to be what i'm really am. NO. i'm acting. i dunno how long can i last.

but acting not necessary have to be bad. sometimes, u gotta have that superficiality to make things go smoother. although this is not going to be helpful in the long run, i don think we will have a long run scenario in our future. we will definitely going to BREAK apart.

arhhh. i dunno how much harm my words can cause, cos sometime i just think too much. this is my 2cents worth of opinion in the spur of moment.

x-country. i want to quit. i see no future in MYSELF, and no future in the ENVIRONMENT that the team is in. simply sucks. but i don think i can. my testimonial is going to be empty then...............


endure. smile. if cant do it from bottom of your heart, do the fake way first. then slowly transform to genuine smile.

can i lie to myself? 8:05 PM

Today ran the boys route <4.8>30mins. pls PUKE!

BUT! when i was nearing the school, saw junhao! he said "jiayou jiayou og4!"

wahhh he still remember! so nice... but i was quite breathless so only murmured a soft xiexie. i wonder if he hears it :/

hmm..i think i'm really a weird and scary person.. normally when we pass each other, we don't usually acknowledge each other, though he was my ogl. the same with Jeffrey's case. though we almost alway meet on the way towards school, we don't greet eh. lols. but when we are running, we will clap for each other, cos it is a CSS & Mr. Quek practise!!! :DD

hmm..i must look more friendly and approachable. i can't let more people shoo away from me! i shall attempt to say hi the next time i see them. but i bet they will find me weird. am i thinking too much again? hahas..

FY gave the track people alcoholic chocolate that he bought from europe! wah it taste shiok! 12% alcohol~~ cool. hmm if there is one thing i won't lose passion in, its CHOCOLATE! when i grow up, i will buy chocolate from every country i visit :)

another random thought: rich people don't appear rich. lols.. xD i think i appear rich, but if ya know me well enough, you will know how poor am i, having to constantly fret over university fees.



9jan is tml. 2pm. 6:19 PM

Really really really glad to see your message. it makes my heart a little strong ba.. u're really nice.. compared to myl.. Maybe Capricorn get along better with Taurus =))

woohoo u're on TP mag, NYP mag and newpaper! :DD pass u the one on nyp today.

(took it out and scrutinized) "eh~ the picture same de ah "

"haha yar but its nyp de ma"

"wah den u still give ah"

"u don wan den give me lorr!"

"haha no lar.. thanks ya.. eh it appeared on newpaper today also. i was reading it den like eh! then the people beside me also look at me.haha"

"wa really ah! steady lar. u going home arh?"

"no going inside.. wait for someone.. "

"haha wait for her lar~~"

"so wed what time u going in"

"2pm"

"so u cannot come out lar?"

"first 2 weeks cannot. den every week come out once"

"O.. so no hair la? haha!"

"haha ya lor.. so u better don see me"

"O..ok lar..den i go le"

(he did sth like saluting. lols) "thanks arh.. take care =) " and waved bye.

O...... i wished we can talk longer >< hmm maybe i will call tml.. see how thick face i can be. heh.

loves.




on another note, i feel really fucked up. 2,4 timing today is like shit. SHIT! it is like my sec1 or 2 or PRIMARY SCH timing?! gee!!! my timing has been swaying around.. and my backache is giving me headache! i wonder can i continue running? every night it hurts, every running too..

i am losing faith in something i once called passion. 8:10 PM

i didn't know liking has changed to love. and love has failed me again. it left me helpless, make my already tattered heart even weaker. why.. why do i always have to suffer from this fate?

you will be away from 9jan. today seems to be the last day i see you. will this be the last of lifetime? i am really suffocated now. i didn't know i loved u so.

if you ever need someone but she's not around, i am here. but just that u may not even want to turn to me in the first place.

love. this is really love. only today i realised.

how long am i going to be trapped then? last time it was 5+ years. is a cycle going to repeat again?

only today, i feel the emotion, the raging unwillingness to see you leave.

weak, i am really weak now. how am i going to be strong again? without seeing you.

him........................................................................................................................ 12:17 AM

Lets recall!

Midnight:
1st came pt sms! =)) i think you're on the first place for several years already. heheh. thanks! i await your surprise for me. Lols!

2nd is xy, my senior! woohoo! thanks! EVER WITH THE BEST =DD

3rd is mimosa! youre not late actually. lol. thanks! and thanks for cooking up a story about your mum fad over zaizai in order to test me out -.- lol. love the album! u must buy f4 album ar!

hmm i don really need anyone to stay countdown for me next time. NOT that i don like it. Just that i feel very bad la, cos everyone gotta attend sch later. Hope i don have to spend the 19th on the bed. By that time, i will be very FREE, with the LONG LONG LONG holidays! xD

4th is yZ. heh thanks for your big pink lollipop toy although the bottom part looks like ..... ahem! haha..

5th is benazir!!!!! partner!!!!! i miss her alot alot alot. She called me during GP lesson.But i cant pick up!!!! Really frustrating!!! I think the lesson yesterday was really useless, just going through the motion. Obviously she wasn't ready. So end up i can only message her. Haiix. I hope her life at National Jail Confinement will be alright this year. Come to think of it,i miss that place eh >< horrr ="))" xinyu ="))">< tags ="))"><>< leh ="I" qixuan =")">< i'm so ps.. cos this is their third time giving me things but i only get to know when's their bday today. oh juniors,thanks!

This more or less sums up. But my badminton partners forgot. lol. joanne & ann. haha but its okay =)

i didnt know i love cards so much ^-^

grabbed from pt blog. i love it~

~~Wishes~~
1. Be Less Afraid, Be More Happy.

yupp. i think that may become the motto of my life. I'm afraid of too much things already. That is not leading me to anywhere. As for more happiness..I think everyone are slogging now, in the hope that they will attain that. But we are often in a blind pursuit of happiness, cos you cant even fathom what is that actually? A state of mind? Material comforts? Love? It is up to us to define, and hence we are living life differently. I want mine to be worth. Live a meaningful life that i deem worth in my perspective. If not i should just exit and stop producing CO2 that contribute to global warming.

I am still in search of my ambition. It is really sad that after 18 years i still have not figure out the path of life.

2. A level result of my expectation

This is a short term goal specifically for 08. Initially i was hoping for 3A1C. But after hearing ahbao only wants 2A, i think i aim too high. Maybe 3A1D or 2A2B ba.. Aiya still not sure,cos have not experience Cambridge A lvl standard yet. Currently only exposed to my jc very ahem ahem de standard.

3.

Aiya, sure wont come true. It has been on the top of my list for as long as i can remember. So i don bother to pen it down le. ...


I think i will blog less for this year. Mainly it is due to the added rigour of academic,but it is also because i feel my entries lack substance and depth. I want myself to be more insightful...



I'm determined to live a colourful EIGHTEEN

Labels: bday

7:54 PM

Happy birthday to ME!

will blog more tml. off to study maths test -.- haha i wil ve a colourful EIGHTEEN! 8:50 PM