8:48 PM

Today saw MrQuek at CCAB again :D He asked jj if we wanna join in time trial. But all of us were too scare and unprep, so we "kindly" rejected. Lol..

Then ytd, we 3 (yl, pt, me) went down to NUS to support ABA =) Maybe we 3 bring them luck, cos they got into the finals! hahaha.. NUS is so bigggg lar. We alight too early and have to walk a few bus stops's distance to reach that place. Hmmm, i think i show my temper.. Sorry lar, sometimes i rather ppl late than myself being late. Late coming is against my principle -.- But somehow, we still manage to be early! Ewww this show many organisers have bad time management..

Hmm.. I think this time round all of us were more natural. Gooood! Hahaa to further improve this, maybe all of us shd go out more? Lol! Anyway, bound to see them once again on 16th May, which is their finals at Arena, where they won a competition b4! wohoh! And FYI, the song played on my blog is sung by them yo! :D

YL played a good host again. But it was his gf that asked him to ask we 3 to go sit we them. Wow. After announcement of results, we 3 went to shake hands with the band. Lol quite funny huh. But need to congrats them what. Hahaa. They looked so touched. Haha. Then at night recv msg from MT sayin thanks again. Thats so rare of him! xD

Hmmm.. i think my silly craze for them, or he, will still last for quite sometime. Haha..


6:16 PM


Look! km in his ACSI uniform! Cool eh. haha! Thats their preliminary audition photo. This fri they having audition again to see if can make it to finals! JIAYOU! =D 5:56 PM

PEOPLE!

:DD

Yours sincerely has made it to the highly prestigious and honorable pre-u seminar!

hoorays!

Although my role is stated as "researcher", which i suppose is to assist the "core team", i'm very satisfied already! As long as i can partake in, it is of great pleasure and affirmation for me.

Okay so with this great opportunity, there are many responsibilities to be fulfilled. Gotta do more readings to make sure i'm abreast of current affairs, esp pertaining to Spore.

Maybe i shall get some advices from joanne =)

wl is happy! =D

wl currently obsessed with ....

DP!!!!!!!!!!

>.<

but i also don like people who club. seriously, i don't know what form of fun and enjoyment can one derived from smoking and clubbing, simply bcos i've tried none b4. So if i want to understand truly this grp of ppl, must i go through the process?

=.=

Ewww.. thats too much a risk to take. Thus i say,sometime, ignorance is a bliss... 8:48 PM

besides ABA, my newly affection...

11:22 PM

Cross Country Relay @ macritchie!

it rained again! but it was after the girls race.. ewww the guys are so cham. dint manage to run for both race!!!

so how i fare? haiii damn bad

jasmine: 16+ me:19+ qx: 18.18 jenn: 19flat (she fell during the run!)

so if ure not a fool you can see that i did the worse. really let the team down.

what can i do...........
how much can i improve..........
only a month away................!

anyway, i get to see my 2 idols again. haha.

hmm,i kindda like acjc cross team. they are a bonded bunch of peeps, at least on the surface bah.
and, most of the guys were quite good looking >< hehhh. hope they have character besides their exterior good.cos ac still give me the impression of snobs and riches la. Okay, cept the commonwealthians inside, and the other few and countable ac peeps tht i knw.

mrQuek spotted me fr his car! ahah. his schs werent there cos they went to CCAB to run for their 1st time. hmm thts kindda late given that the race is in one month time. he asked how's my run. lousy loh, what can i say. but i think can see him quite often in ccab le, since his schs are trng there too. yayys. haha. i sound so fanatic.

i still think of 1 wk ago. =)) 9:25 PM

100th post.....!

This ranting place of mine has proceed this far :) Although most of the time it does not hold much substance and content, and most of the time rather depressing, it is still a milestone ba. Haha =))

Today's trng was quite disastrous for me.. I was not at the best state, with PE just b4 it, and body aching from the various conditioning. Supposedly have to complete 4 x 1km, but i only finished 3 sets in the end. >< ... Partly cos of the stiffening of muscles (butt pain!!!! zzzz) and my stomach felt "watery" =.= Timings were not good......

Another race @ macritchie is on this sat. It is a CROSSCOUNTRY RELAY,each person will run 3.3km. Wooho this is quite special right! But i fear my performance will pull the team down =(
Oh well, hope for the best.

When heading to IMM aft trng for the search for team jerseys, saw him just outside sch................ yayy finally see his botak state cos that time only saw him with a cap on. Haha. Because i was with another person, i was unable to talk to him a lot......... arhhhh.. But somehow i feel, you understand i have a lot to say? Or is it again my one-sided speculation?

"train hard.." "study hard for As.. actually it isnt that difficult.."
what else?.. i forgot.. haiii

Then we said bye. While on the bus, i saw him and her walking tgt. So he had came to find her. Oh this is perfectly normal right, come on, they are a couple what.

I expect myself to be more green-eyed.. But somehow it tend to neutrality. Yes i want to talk to him a lot, but sometime it is too overwhelming that words just get swallowed.

And beside, i'm missing another someone. I'm not a flirt, cos that person is one who made my heart tied and closed for 5.5 years. Or.. Or.. has it been a fact that i seek to deny, of 7+ years???

IS IT?

Honestly and seriously, I DON'T KNOW.

pt told me don't let them be the whole of my life. I strongly defend that that is valid in the past, but not now, bcos i like the "him". Now it appears that i'm stucked and falling all over again. But the thing is, i'm feeling quite peace in the heart with this once wrenching one-sided love.

Maybe this is just once again a short term phenomenon of the flickering heart and mind. This has been very typical of me.

Now more on my mind is really yl,not so much him. >< I thought yl has changed, so i can psycho to stop the affection and devotion. But i realised last sat, he hasnt..... It is such an irony. If he changed, i don like the self he shows. If he didnt, i fall.

And what always happen when i fall?

HURT

I aint feeling that now, perhaps still immerse and blinded by the sweetness of last sat.
If this sweetness can blind me forever, i wont mind, just like a person will not want to wake up from a sweet dream. Right now, i'm still alright.. Peaceful =))

-------------------------->YL!<---------------------------------------------------

I bet some of my close frens are shaking their heads in despair bout my state again. heh ;) 11:30 PM

wohoh!

Out with yeele pt yl zaw km mt & his gal!

Initially,i thought the whole thing is going to be a mess and get cancelled.. We're supposed to meet at 7,but meeting with primary gang will always be late. Lol. I got so piss when mt didnt even know we're supposed to meet TODAY. Luckily he and his gal are in town area too.. zaw lar! never inform properly huh

But well yl and km came at arnd 745.. =) pt and i walked up and down from far east and shaw ctr for dunno how many times.. =.= the 4 of us sat inside for quite sometime b4 mt came w his gal and ask us go to cheap cheap place. hahha. so in the end we settled for the hawker up at far east plaza. 3 of us didnt eat, i think we gave the wrong impression that we look down or sth like that..

While they're eating, yl tried to keep conversation going, cos he saw the 3 of us like quite bored. haha... cos our dear bridge aka organiser aka zaw still hv not come yet..but well we managed to talk a bit =) oh he gave me that shocked look when he knew im fr this current jc.. ewww i must have gave him the impression tht im very smart. heheh!

Then the 6 of us went to watch step up. Hmm it was such a weird combi. The content was not very outstanding, but the dance moves are gr8. Made me think of him lorrr. Haha.. Anyway,i sort of made a deliberate attempt! heheheh.. sat beside him during movie! when i can move inside.. but i just pretend blur blur and sat down. hohoho!

Hmm.. i don think i fall for him again, but somehow i like the feeling of being close to him.... ><
is it my subconscious still ...?

But well, although we were just beside, i think there was still a gr8 distance apart..the distance in understanding. u looked sooo tired ya. bet u didnt enjoy the movie much either.. But again, im happy ure still tgt with her! =D

you didnt change like i thought you were. you don club like as are not too. ^^

took taxi home w both YLs. haha. chatted a little in the taxi again =D so rare opportunity lehh!!

Btw, mt's gal is so nice,sweet,guai AND smart. Bishan JC! hahaha u get it..

Today's gathering was not exactly fantastic. But it made my state of life happier.. I dunno why, perhaps the magic of nostalgia, since i'm so nostalgic. Lols.. Really glad tht he didnt change that much.. Cos i don like ppl to change from their old self whom i used to know.

Maybe,just maybe, i'm so happy cos i like you as a big bro now. Or maybe it is just today that u got no choice but to play the big bro role. But anyway,

U rock =))

Hope ABA made it to stardust finals. I will go down to support then!! =DD 2:06 AM

Oh how spooky can this get

Just b4 boarding the escalator leading to far east plaza, i saw yl & km!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Somehow, my natural instinct is to, RUN. Away from you.

But i guess yl saw. Agrhh.

Come to think of it, actually my reaction was really fast. I just caught like half a glimpse of yl & km b4 exclaiming to ahbao to run away. According to ahbao, he don seem to ve much reaction. Er, maybe just turn his eyeball a little.

So tml all of us are meeting agn... Hope it turn out good....

Then, inside FEP, ahbao saw ahem! Wah somehow her natural instinct is to run too, so only left me stunned there and look at him pass by. Lol..

Oh man curse...

Anyway, i spent like <150. yes after u have your mouth wide open pls come and kill me. ahbao next time pls do a better job as my financial controller. LOL xD

Something frustrating. It is bout the blood donation proj. I hereby declare, I CANT WORK WITH CONNIE TAN. We, simply have too much of a difference in beliefs, attitude and style for any collaboration to take place. You, indirectly take away my proposal. Don make it seemingly u have done all the job. So what if you think me this 2nd IC has sort of disregard you. Den, just work on your own lar! I don mind stepping away from this proj.

This proj is really full of blood. Bloody hell...... 10:13 PM

Mon

Did some ushering work at RP for sth called Character and Citizenship Conference. I think it is rather weird for them to employ jjc ppl to do ushering at a place so foreign to us. As a result, some of us got blasted for not knowing the directions.. rahhh not all teachers are understanding..

The GOH was a very big shot who seldom make public appearance, whose designation was Director-General of Education. Well the organisers that i interacted with were all quite apprehensive about her. Even as i observed her on the stage from far, she exult the forbidding feeling. The audiences, which are the teachers and principals fr various schs, behaved just like the way students are. haha. The DGE got a little piss off when the technical error occurred during her presentation and i think everyone was nervous then. haha.
BUT! wow! I manage to have a very CLOSE and unknowing interaction with her. Lols! As the crowd dispersed to proceed to their various destinations, we went to eat at the refreshment area set up for the VIP. yeele was in front of me then. I suddenly see her becoming uptight and the next moment a group of ppl brushed through me. At then my mouth was almost full of food and the DGE actually pat on the shoulders and said Hi! Hi!
O.O lol! I didnt recognise who the person was and was too stunned to reply her anything. But the ppl around DGE was all staring at me! Perhaps for my unglam behavior and disrespectful. Ehh i was just too shock to react. so the DGE can be nice too! haha =)

Then later i rushed back home and went for the sports camp.. To me it simply wasnt up to my expectation la. Too inefficient and ill-organised. Waste of my twenty bucks. Perhaps it only serve to create more rivalry b/w sport teams la. This is not the way to inspire. And it is simply too late.

TODAY! THE RACE GOT CANCELLED!!! agrrrrrr... Supposedly my 1st race of the year lar.. It was raining too heavily. We were drenched and soaked up b4 reaching the place. It is being pushed to fri, but the sch is pulling out. oh well..

nevertheless, sth still make my day =) I SAW MY 2 IDOLS! mrQuek and allan. lols. Managed to talk to mrQ b4 i left the place. yayy he still recognise me. haha.. anyway, beside mgs and rjc, he is coaching RV now too!!! arggg why why why. JEALOUS! lol.. But looking at my current state, i don deserved such a good teacher ba..

Current injury: shin pain. Agrr

Time just flies. Money too. Inflation! ><
10:27 PM

Finally......

I managed to survive through this very hectic week. NEVER have i felt so tired for a schooling week. Is it due to age catching up on me, or have i bought it upon myself for procrastinating so much.

Trainings were relatively more satisfactory. I improved, but others too, so do those in other jcs. The countdown has really begun. It is only less than 6 weeks to Nationals. How much more trainings can i have and how much can i improved? It dawned upon me that i should have take each and every training seriously. Every single move counts.

Moving on to the acad. argh it is quite depressing. The tests this week are going to be a goner case. =/ and the previous test seems so too. Since i fare badly as compared to others. yes yes i like to compare.

A levels out today. Was it a blessing in disguise for this 2007 batch. The announcement of result is being pushed so much further this year, despite the results were recv by MOE on 21st jan. Obviously extensive moderations have been done to create the impression that the education system has proceed in the right direction of changes. I worry for my cohort.

Nevertheless the school seems quite immersed in their marked improvements. I beg to differ thou. Guess how many all As for 4h2s. It is just a very auspicious chinese number. Number of As for 3h2s. Well,slightly better. Somewhat below after adding a zero to the back of the auspicious number. arghh. Our cohort will do better, esp 4h2s ppl right. haha.

To me the most scary piece of info of all is that only <50% A-C for gp........ ohmyohmy. This just show how handicap we are in our angmoh right? Maybe i shall consult singh b4 As? Since he revived a C6 to B3 before =)

i forgot how much our top scorer got.Is it 4 or 5. But i know it is definitely not the 7As that other jcs talk bout. Take ac for eg. Their top has 7As and 2 h3 merit. But whats so gr8 bout him???

HE IS FR CSS 4-1!

haha..Ee cheong. He was one of the top for his batch.

Hmm i think those css-nj did pretty decent too. 3As 4As for their h2s. Congrats =)

I'm quite surprised at some of the remarkable result by councilors. If they, who have so much lesser time to study, yet achieved astounding result, those non-leaders who use no time as an excuse should just go and bang against the wall. So, i cannot use no time as an excuse for my pathetic result!! I cant lie to myself any longer.I must ACT. Oh i'm listening to leow' preaches. haha.

Finally, i manage to see ... Although it was just a mere 10 secs, the elation it bought will stay for very long. For i dont know when is the next time i can see ... Glad u can stay in sgp..! =))

I can, and will do well.

Miss................. 10:44 PM

oh yeah!

I hit my personal best (PB) for 2.4 today! It was 12.24! =D Quite amazed by my performance,as it saw a whooping improvement of 25 secs! Alright i must make some acknowledgment, thanks to my pacer Noel who ran with me for the last 3 rounds and the words of encouragement! People's support during critical times are greatly appreciated and desired! It kindda made me think back of my fond times under Quek! hahah i know many commonwealthians out there may beg to differ =p But another contributing factor was the weather. It was the perfect one that i can ask for, no sunshine blazing the track, but cooling wind blows! =D

Well although it is still much away frm rjc weakest gal of 12.06, but it was still an improvement.. Just that it gotta be faster. I hope i can hit below 12 b4 Nationals. Tall order.. but i shall aim high. However this means a lot of work gotta be done and efforts to be devoted in. Jiayouuuu to myself.

I wanna go for the pre-u sem.. But i think it is too prestigious and highly valued for me to get in, for they can only send 25 ppl. Nevertheless, i think i will give it a try...

A wave of emo-ness suddenly striked today. Do leave me alone when you see the symptoms appearing as follow

1. Withdrawing from conversations
2. Face that look like as if it has a dark cloud above
3. Throwing tantrums and expect ppl to tolerate it

Do pardon for my inconsiderate behavior for the period of time when the monster is at large.
But i am glad to inform my dear faithful readers (if any) that no casualties were reported today as the situation was being controlled after several minutes.

LOLLL i must be too stressed so as to blab the nonsense like the above. Hope it make someone laugh =.= 9:22 PM

It has been a long time since i ran in the rain. Today was more than just a drizzle, coupled with moderate wind that send you shivers. But the feeling is really shiok.. running in the rain, especially cross country route. (Definitely not referring to rounds around the track.) just hope that i wont be sick =P There's another 2.4 trial next week. Pls let me do well, be better than the previous one.


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