see lah see lah!!

whats the point!!

he offline le!!

argg.. wl ah wl.. why do u alway do things that make you regret?

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11:23 PM

wabiang eh.. why i so stupid go and put the haha icon.. its.. very no image de lo.. grrr... just a short conversation.. with.. II no. 5!! oh my~~~~ den ahbao keep encouraging me to talk to him, giving me lots of skeming ideas! lol.. but i don dare lar... but what a good chance lehhhhh.. but now its over 1.5 hours le!! ahhhh.. ailikesi~~~ okok im being hua chi now.

will i talk to him? .... revealing soon..

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10:23 PM

II No. 10 Thaddeus Cheong

My inspiration to do well, for track/x try.

I can reach the peak i had in sec 2 when i was under Mr. quek. On a side note, i think Mr. Quek knows him since he coaches rjc...

Work Hard, if i am on the tough path, alone.

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12:17 AM

Wanted to put this up long ago, but keep forgetting.

By no.3 II (Tlorrr)

Maybe this is what education really is. Not those ludicrous formulae and theories. But more of learning what kind of life you want to live for and understanding the way to live it. Well, like what the advert says, making the lessons come a-live.

Training today was kinda new. I got to wear a thing that measure your heartbeat. It needs to wore at chest level. Lol.Plus a wrist watch. I seriously feel there is something wrong with my HEART!! The heartbeat NEVER go above 100,even after doing intervals and like a dog panting hard for breath!! Maybe really something wrong with my heart, or something wrong with the device, Hope its the latter. humph..

But i wonder why of this sudden training? Could it be because of that tragic incident.. Haii...

After training, just out of the blue yZ called me to meet at jp. Den very out of the blue again, i spotted an adidas sport shoe and bought it -.- walau i am such a rash person!!It cost a bomb!! over 150+.. sob.. Well, it must last me till the end of national x-try season [if i do get into the school team at all.....]

Anyway, heard from a track mate that tingting scored 29/30 for chem TT2 and 23/25 for math graphing. omg.. chem i only got 15 while maths got 15.. horrible la.. we are both from FOUR ONE!!!! The best of CSS!! And now we are at extreme ends.. Nvm.. i CAN catch up. Optimist..! Though being a "leader" really takes up time.. i put " " , cos i wonder am i really fit to be called. I am not really a responsible CSL..

Alright.. back to study. Hope argon will be recover in time for his nationals,thou he is representing national, but i am here in jurong. haha. nvm la, sportsmanship =)
9:53 PM

Woo hoh! School ended on a high note today! Haha.. cos i received my best test result in jj! I got full marks for gp current affairs test!! :DD Okay la that was an open book test..but still quite a feat ba.. Since i was the only full mark ^^ Congrats myself. hee hee..

BUT. The results received earlier were really disaster. Overall term 2 result for econ is 61 and C lit is 61.7 Both C. Well, i am very sure for math and chem, it will be an C, or even worse. For gp, i guess it will be b4 ba. Wow good job man, wl, you are a CCCC student.muahahaha.

Yeah right.. I am so "happy". I don mind having this type of grades if in nj..Cos their papers are of higher standard.. aiyah, cant have this type of mindset. Just work hard for CT that is a month away! 1 month is very fast, just like how the holidays drifted past.

Work hard. Rage on. Fight on. Optimist =)

Track training tml. Dunno what jennifer means by a guy will be coming down to train us. Lol. "Teddy" should still be a form of moltivation.. 6:55 PM

School reopens. First time going with unfinished homework. boo hoo.

Was finding house comm members to distribute them the photos . The pleasant surprise and wide grin on their face upon receiving gave me the sense of achievement and happiness, for being able to deliver joy to them through the photos. lol seems exaggerating.

wl:nah photos! :D
wl:wa! zhe me hui you? (how come have?)
wl:orh, house comm de lor
wl:shui nong de? (who did it?)
wl:wo lo.( me lo) haha
wl:eh xie xie leh! zhen de xie xie ni leh!
wl:bu yong jin! (it's okay!)

Ha just in case you think you are seeing things,or thought that i was talking to myself, it was just that i was speaking to a guy with the same initials as me. haha. lol wl sounded so polite and damn grateful to me. haha.. =)

Hmm.. A piece of news in the newspaper dampened my spirit alot.. A student triathele from rjc collapsed and died just after he crossed the finishing line.. What can be more tragic and fatal than that?He trained tremendously hard during june holidays by having twice trainings per day and gave his all during the race, clocking his personal best. Yet, he was unable to be in glory for his outstanding accomplishment, being suddenly taken away for an unknown reason. The autopsy report said was heart and lungs failure, though when news reported, it still seems pretty uncertain. But what could had happened during the race? Witness said that he still looks fine throughout the race.

I feel strongly for this incident. It is really very saddening, and a great lost. A talent for both sports and academics.Perhaps it is cause i am sportperson.. Oh well.. Am i really fit to be one? I don't have the discipline and strong determination like him, or other true sportsperson.

Today after running fast for 4 laps, Mr Handsome Ng approached me and asked for my 2.4 timing. I said it was a lousy 12+ timing. He said can improved to 1030 a not? I asked how long? He said 1 year.(actually its only 10 months cos he forgot X-try is held in April every year) I replied with uncertainty and staggered manner "I'll try.."
My obvious uncertainty shook his confidence level, i think.. This is bad.. Ought to have positive mindset.. It affects performance, a lot.

On the last note, though i am a non-christian, i hope He will be happy at heaven(he is a christian). God will bless this wonderful child.

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10:45 PM

I left out someone of my II list! And that will be Mr. SimonLeow! Haha he is also a great teacher, got to know more about him thru yL. Hopefully will have a chance to work with him for grad night 07! hee..

Anyway, met up with pt today. ha this is the 3rd time meeting her during this hols! what a feat! yL can't make it though. Hmmm! hey pt, know what, i actually can't fit into that white pants!! -.- waliew.. size XL le. lol. so i gave my sister. haha. wa must really diet and run more le.. By the way,Fantastic 4 was quite a nice movie. Now what i am eager is Harry Potter!!!! :DD

About 5 more weeks to CT. hey not i counted myself de. know it from yiqing blog. so yL, i am not the most kiasu out there. ha. but 5 weeks are really fast. just like how the holidays are over and i am halfway through j1 already! don't you wish you can put a stop to Time flying license? (quoted from II no.3 =D)

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9:15 PM

Spooky!

Well this is really a big coincidence! Or more than that! Both yl and i actually wrote on the same topic for the Chi literary composition! On the 2 YL story.. Haha but i modified till i am the main character, aka her. Not that i wanna snatch the limelight you see.. but it is easier to write from "her" perspective. Must be tailored made to suit consumer taste, aka teachers. Heh. Nevertheless, i am curious what she had wrote! Can peak to her past inner world, though i believed she wont throw all the things in. Ha. All in all, i find this funny and 邪门. haha.


Maybe this is what education really is. Not those ludicrous formulae and theories. But more of learning what kind of life you want to live for and understanding the way to live it. Well, like what the advert says, making the lessons come a-live.
[ Tlorrr]

“Love lost is still love. It takes a different form, that’s all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn’t.”

- 5 people you meet in heaven
[t-rex sor]

Let me list my II- Inspirational Idol!
1. Mr. Steven Quek [ kudos!! for all his teachings.. and his styles.. made me disciplined in the past..(trying to find back that now) ]

2. Ramesh [AKLTG instructor. wa. His words made strong impact on me. got so much things to learn from him! ]

3. ThomasLaw [ Hope he don't get to see this =x cos most people seem to be scare when others treat them as idol. Anyway, he is a GREAT sports person and student athlete. I can't elab more cos that will probably take up another entry. lol ]

4. AllanTeng [ Heh i only know him as yl friend. But he is superb la. Excel in acad, track, music, taekwondo etc. Really inspirational! ]

5. EricSor [ Ha actually i dunno whether he should be in the II category or not.. lol. Think i will go for him if i stay on in nj.. haha.. ]

6. HanErn [ His blog is sooo funny! His english is super ZAI!! Will improve english if read his blog often! hmm hope he doesnt see this eh.. He will sure feel wierd why this unknown gal named him as idol. lol.. ]

Alright below should be my gals idol.!

7. Joanne Khor [She is da most chiong,dedicated,determined,hardworking girl. Just don be too caught up with all the many things ye. You will go far =) and get what u want ]

8. Chan Xinyu [ my tutor!!! now my grades are suffering without her.. she understands my acad needs best! well i was seeking help from her for the past 2 years! miss you eh. not just the acad help you can give me. but what you are as a friend =) she is a damn nice gal! ]

yupp that should be it. Any changes in my II, i will update soon. ha. byee!

Now it is back to od stuff. grr..

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11:12 PM

Got to know her email by chance. Saw their photos. Sweet. Close. Loving.

Well this is the starting honeymoon period. Perfectly normal. Not trying to be skeptical, but shall see how long it lasts. But some times things work cos there is a strong spirit due to the stranding in against all odds situation.

I am not giving up nope, nor holding high hopes. Just let nature takes it own course. There are things that are more integral now.

But nevertheless, the awful feeling is there. A little suffocated too. Plus some cracks of the glass heart. Cracks, not yet broken. Though maybe soon? I don't know.

I do like him.Could be Love even. Pardon my arrogance, but i do know when is Like or Love. Not like those teenage boys and girls who confess and publicize their 'Love' so often. The only guy I had loved is that myl. But thats a really fatal and wrenching love. Got so much hurt from him. But nevertheless, it is a good thing i am out of the shit long ago. :)

I should really change myself, for the sake of betterment of myself. Nvm if any1 of you don't get it ^^

Glad that optimism has not left. =)

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5:13 PM

boo hoo.. Eyes threatening to close now thou its just 1030pm. Must be the work of this evil machine in front of me, that is responsible for my increasing utility bill and falling eyesight. Dunno why la, everyday will just spent hours in front of it.

Got back chem topical test 2 today. Just passed. Hmm usually i will feel very grieved and depressed and perhaps need some one to knock some 'grade isnt all' sense into me. But i am feeling alright! Is it a sign of me getting out of the marks and grade comparison? haha nah far from it.

Cos i know where the mistakes are, and know how to rectify it. Wow thats so unlike me. I am seldom so optimistic! heh. Hopefully my optimism is not going to cross the line and touch indifference. ha.

Read ah tuck blog. He is damn funny la. He said he is getting fatter cos of all the pak-zhang he had ate. ME TOO!!! Till date, i had ate about 7,8!! Thats so scary la!! Guess the 6+ km run on wed wont help to salvage much of the fattening situation. hoh..

There should be a bikila HC gathering this fri or sat. Not sure whether the j2s are going, not sure whether i want to one. But very sure if he is there, i will be. haha yeah thats so bad. xD

Hols ending. gr8. hwk not completed. boo hoo. but i will la. just that cant start revision.. hmm.

Anyway here is a video that is a must-watch for all physics students. I am so glad to be a physics dropout, upon seeing so many of my peers being a martyr to the physics theories. heh. for non physics taker, just an entertainment for you!

Here

Lets see how long can optimism possess me :)

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10:26 PM

Lost all my energy to blog cos i only come to this page after 2 hours of surfing/wasting time. Today gp test was alright. Just that if it was not open book, i will fill in nonsense on the blanks.

Went go with yl pt again! ;) to square2 and velocity. It is a nice alternative to bugis and far east. Shopping just bring out my spendthrift/squanderer nature. Total expenditure exceeds hundred bucks. boo hoo.
SE s500i Inspired By Nature. My utmost desire now. Actually i wanna buy a new phone is cos the current one is like going haywire and keep hanging. but v bad la! my sis is still using N3200 ><

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4:30 PM

hmm.. trying this for the first time.. but it is credible since it is reported and recommended by someone decent. haha. pls click here! 11:05 PM

A really big trauma today. All the messages saved in my phone were suddenly GONE!! for no reason.. what the.. ! There were about 150+ la.. All of it are memorable ones.. Some are forwarded messages, some are encouraging ones and some from dearest people. SO, all the message He sent were gone!!!!!!!! argh!!!! I really feel like shouting vulgarities. I wanna by going to technical center will help to retrieve those message back.. Pls..!

Morning track training was okay. Still quite slack..Too long recovery time. But i can't even hit 1.45mins each round for 1km interval. Sigh. Had PW meeting later. I realized how tough it is to work with noob people.. Not being offensive. I am quite a noob person too, for stuff like CSL and operations. Just that i am more experienced in this PW due to having done IPW in sec2. So i can comprehend that type of feeling marcus is having ba, cos he is having such a noob p.a . humph. No wonder in real working society, those with experience are always preferred.

Shall mug hard for the next 4 days. Used to detest and despise the word 'mug' in the past. But i am now so proud to use it. Perhaps cos there isn't a need to mug in secondary school at all. Really lo. Those were the easy days. Comparatively la..

Hmm. i miss you.

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9:53 PM

Went back to jj for econ make-up today. I rushed all the way to school, only to discover upon reaching that people were slowly strolling towards the LT. Inside the LT, it was only 3/4 full and there wasn't any sense of urgency in settling down to start the lesson promptly. Apparently the teacher anticipated it, and was not too bothered about it. Perhaps it was all too common. Then i realized, this is not nj or commonwealth. ..
It was not a fruitful lesson at all. How can it be when it started late and ended early?

On the way to canteen, saw Him and her at the concourse cozy corner. Only them alone..studying..At that moment, really felt heartbroken and suffocated. If i were along for a little longer, tear might even gush out.. Luckily saw B,J,jj and py, and went along with them for brunch. (though something that B and J did b4 the lesson make me feel really shouting V)

Left first cos PW meeting was canceled. I was walking towards the interchange, with messy hair and tired outlook. eh! what a familiar figure! the guy in outstanding green shirt! oh! Him! A broad smile immediately spread over my face. He saw me too! and we waved and smiled at each other ^.^ He smiled and pointed to his thick file, to indicate that he was going to study. Hohooo! I thought we will be just passing by each other but later heard him calling me back! Turn back with great uplifted spirit. Though the conversation only revolved around the HC stuff. lol. but its okay la.. sooo long didn't get a chance to talk to him le lo. When he was searching for the disc with all the HC photos, i gotta help to take his file. omg its like.. 10inches thick?!! really la. gosh.. He very funny lo. Wanna return me the disc so can put the photos up the board. He thought i had deleted all the photos from my comp and the disc is the only copy of all the photos. haha..

Before departing, checked with him if mb is dancing for od. He said dunno.. "Even if they are dancing i will not be joining" "Why?" "du2 shu1", with a smile and pointing to his thick file yet again. So we departed with that last bye.

Then i can't stop smiling to myself when walking to the interchange la. Must had looked like a moron. hoh.. just feeling, very sweet lo. haha i know it sound funny and silly.. cos i was like feeling heartbroken 2hours ago? oh well.. I am always this emotional.

喂。。怎么办。。我超喜欢你。。

但你只是她的专属天使。。

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2:33 PM








Haha.. photos galore! :DD Actually i wanna post some p6 photo to show the contrast..But there is problem with my scanner. -.o heh i am actually the slowest among the 3 to blog!thou i slept at 2am last night. Well..the unwanted came true.But so be it then.. No point forcing when the willingness isn't there. Nevertheless, still a very much enjoyable trip! =)

Went to kbox..As usual, i sang out of tune horribly la. Both of them were good lo. Or they are just normal, then i sub-normal. hahas.

After dinner, we actually spent 1hour plus at suntec taking photos, with white construction board, blue board and white messy glass as background. Lol! Both of them so photogenic la.. It is a tricky deal to capture a photo with my eyes SEEN. aiya small and tweak eyes lo.. sianx leh. so i only post those that can see my eyes. ho!

Alway this fun when going out with them. 11th year already! and still going strong =) something you know it is just forever =)

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11:36 PM

One of the conversations between the guy and his father revolved around the zenith of mankind's inventions. While the son blabbered on with materialistic stuff such as telephone, television et ce-tera, his father stopped him and said, "It's words. Poetry."

Inventions may release the pain and the hustle of daily work. These days we have Ipod, Uzap, iTouch and other machines and mechanisms. Cool effects these can conjure. With advancement in technology and healthcare, we live longer and lead an easier life. However, we often overlook simple, rudimentary inventions like words which also affect us very much. Words, simple words, which can be strung together to form something far more greater and impactful, release the sufferings and ease the pain in our hearts. They convey thoughts and feelings to actions. Words are simply magical. Poems, speeches and songs. Most of them can't do without words and they are some things we can hardly forget.

--- Heheh isn't that paragraph above impressive? NAH but not by me! I wish~~ by idol Tlorrr. hahas ^^ I hope he does not discover someone actually copy paste his blog entry +)

2nd week gone past already. I failed terribly in meeting my targets. Initially i had aimed to finish all my homework by end of 2nd week, so as to do revision for remaining weeks. However it is an impossible task now. Haix.. I shall mug real hard in library with ah baO for some days..

Olympic Dream.. Today meeting stretched all the way till from 9 to 340!! I was soooo hungry la.. Anyway a lot of refinements on operation had be done, so gotta redo again.. I am still having trouble over doing of my wet weather plan =( I guessed it will be pretty busy from now till 15 july.. ahhh can't study in peace..

Tomorrow will be going out with yl pt kx.. I think it has been almost 4 long years all of us came out together! hoho.. Monday will be having GP content quiz and essay test.. die la.. 2 coming together and i had prepared none.. I also have not finish doing my part for PW =x

Okay gotta go search info for GP. joanne, look at the glass as half-full ya? =) miss all my friends at nj sia. hmm. takkaire all.

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9:12 PM

Spent the time from 10+ to 7+ at JE library with chewy just to complete the skeleton of our PW skit. omg.. That is so much of time spent. However he think it is a rather reasonable time that we spent on doing it. I wonder how long we will need to spent on gaming design.. *shudders* I want an 'A'..or a 'B' at minimum. yupp :)

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11:53 PM

What an unfruitful day. Not that because it was spent with yZ,but due to the lack of self-discipline to spent the time wisely.

So, reached jw lib just before 10am. You know,being typical singaporeans, i will arrive early to increase my chance of getting a table in the table-scarce jw lib. When i arrived,saw H******N. Was shocked. That means... he could be there too! ><

I tried hiding in a corner unsuccessfully cos there was no corners available for me to conceal my presence. In the end, i went to the toilet purposefully, coming out only when the 'gate' was opened. Actually i wasn't sure whether he was there at all, but just feeling a high possibility since H was there. Well, the thought was confirmed when i saw his bei4 ying3 with his usual schoolbag. He was hopping fast with eyes darting around in search for a table. yupp so found it and settled down with H..

When yZ came, i asked her to go to the area he was residing at, to take a look at him. She said he was wearing polo, but i saw him wearing black T. So i dunno were we referring to the same person -.- lol.. BUT,she said she saw a gal. So its most probably S yeh? But i did not spot her with them initially.. Oh well. Not sure whether he knew i was there. If he knew, it would be obvious that i was avoiding, for no comprehensible apparent reason.(just so typical of me.) But H seems to know who i am.. I hope he did not tell my confession to his pals.. ........ AH! There hasnt been much interaction with him ever since May!* . When saw him on friday, he just gave an acknowledge wave.(like what else more he can do?.. since we are not working anymore) . If he get involved in OD, it will be good then.. Hopefully.. But the chances are slim i guessed..

I am currently 17.5 and 1 day old. lol.. why do i want to remind myself of that? nah not trying to solicit gifts here.. save it for my grand 18th bday can? Haha... It is just that i see my dear fren pt very much elated for being 17. Looking back at myself, half a year of 17 had gone, a supposedly much enjoyable phrase of teenage life. But what did it really contain? Just much distress,tears,paranoid and fears.

1st 2 months were spent at njc. yupp initially was enjoyable with orientation.After that, it was much of slacking and being unproductive. Next was feeling lost, as i cant catch up, even pon school a day for not wanting to face the work in school.

Then,received my O result. Took quite a while to overcome the trauma and accepting reality. Got admitted into a vastly different environment. The initial target that i set to be the top 5% was not reached at all,FAR from it.Scholarship?HAHA. Cant get into scholars programme due to failing in attaining an A for English. Falling asleep in lectures. Failing tests. Feeling fucked up, easily.

Now..I am far far behind. Supposedly to use this holidays to atone all the acad sins. But now..am i?HAHA. Relationship with Jer,and maybe Benita, seems to be very sore due to PW. I really do not want to reach such state.. What can be done to salvage the situation? I wonder why were i so exhilarated upon knowing we are going to be in the same group. It just became a source of conflicts.

17.5 and 1 day. How many days do i really feel truly happy? ... I suppose what i lack, is just... contentment. 知足. As i marched towards the much anticipated 18.

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9:36 PM

first of all.. HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY to my dearest gal- pingting!!! i am very sorry that i forgot to countdown.. ><>< really hope to cya soon!!and hope your wishes will come true =)

track trng today..so many people were late.. honestly,the team is quite ill-disciplined. Punctuality is not a virtue that is being emphasized. i think thomas will shout even more vulgarities at the state of this track team. lol.. striding was alright.. but only completed 3 laps due to a sudden downpour. we proceed to do a special training- pull tire and run. lol.. quite fun.. thou i did if do excessively, will spoilt your kidney =x hee. a guy made a very funny statement. "by the rate we are going,next week we are going to pull a car. further then, we will be going changi airport to train. pull aeroplane!" haha.. but i am experiencing irritaing muscle pain.. haii.

after that went je lib to borrow tapes for PW and then later proceed to CSS to take my cert. did not get to see much teachers.. only waved to Chng. haha. saw mr Leong..but just a brief glance.. btw mrs teo car plate no. is 2823. haha. just a random news. miss css lar.. think this is a phrase all people go thru.. missing their sec sch and longing the past. the easygoing days.. back then you will find your days much suffocated.. but to the You now, it is nothing.. cant compare at all.. i like css feeling.. so much so that i wanna go back as a teacher in the future.. but i dunno what to teach.. and i don want to bring harm to my students.. teacher is a noble job.. thou i dunno why some irresponsible ppl are undertaking this position now,roaming around causing harm,dampening students' passion for school.

saw some juniors..all asked why i go jj w 10.. i know there are a lot of better ones who are in jj currently. but maybe you guys are excelling now..so its alright.BUT. I AM NOT. i am not a clever person, so i need good resources to bring out the whatever little potential.and there isnt much here. except a very cool teacher who has excellent leadership qualities. but i am not working with him in any aspect. juniors asked..why didnt go ac.. i told them i sort of regretted my choice of not putting ac as 2nd choice. NOT THAT jj is not good. but.. i just wanna get into a better jc! 'A's are crucial alright... actually i have another regret(yesyes i have alot of regrets in life). not choosing the poly route. but just that i dunno what industry to enter.. business hotel mgtmt banking finance etc..

had not done any work yet,cos was busy reading that hell thick book for PW. sickening. like i can understand. i proposed to clear all by 2nd week,so the another 2 weeks will be for revision. but looks like it cannot be achieve.. rahh..

another thorn in the flash is od.. getting busier and trickier. the artist concert that i am supposed to be in charged is not on anymore..but there is still a smaller scale concert.but i am not i-c.. haii.. now in log comm..under marcus.. gotta tie up ALOT of operations issue.. which i DUNNO how to do!! haii.. ok la i admit i am a noob alright.. i dunno such stuff..! wanna pon the meeting tml laaa!! haii irresponsibility sinking in =(

sub-normal. thats what i am. i am smart. but that statement does not stand ANYMORE. it fade away together with my graduation from css. perhaps i will not feel this inferiority if i am in anglo or national. as in if i were in that 2 place,i will only experience acad inferiority. now i am feeling all kinds- acad,track,od,friends(will elab below).

high-achievers.elites. there are some people that i respect greatly. cos they are the kind of real smart. despite the very much busy schedule they had,MUCH MORE busy than mine. egs. joanne. she is one gal that will go very far in life. perhaps such common high expectations hold by everyone on her is giving her pressure. but the pressure keeps her going on too.(but gal,do take a breather yea?) Dr Khor. i will call u that in a few years time ya? +)
AllanT. thou i only know him as yl's friend, but he is doing extremely well in so many areas. acad,x-try,music. almost perfect. and he is cool and compose too. truly all-rounder. just like ac is .
fahmi. just get to know from siqi that he is still working at mac ev sunday!!wa.. some more he is from canoeing,a super hiong cca that most probably train 4/5 times a week. with such tight training and rigor acad, he can still manage! and i suppose doing well too! steady steady..


how bout me then?
i lacked the life skills to survive in this 21st century. i really dunno how to speak up. to me, i feeling that the ability to communicate your ideas across fluently and impressing upon others with your views or sharp observations is utterly vital. very essential. i am now still in a very much protected environment. once i leave this in a few years time and get thrown into the working society, i will feel the full blow of the impact. that can possibly rip me apart. yes.. the extreme extent.

why did i said friends above.. it is true that it is better not to work with your friends for PW. the relationship will turn sore. not every1 can tolerate my level of seriousness,strictness and my lack of understanding. cos i keep pressing people to get the job done b4 the deadline. i don wanna fall behind schedule,after the horrific memories of sec2 IPW,pia-ing all night just b4 the day of submission. i am sorry for my lack of understanding. but i hope sometimes you all can show some understanding to me too.... like sending me alone to nj to execute the survey. so what if i have many friends there. if that is the case ev1 just go to a jc by yourself which has your friends in to execute it. if you all can explain the rationale behind such arrangement, i will gladly accept it. but, no one offer a valid one. okay.. let begones be begones.(er did i spell correctly?lol) i hope no one will bear any grudge against me as i really would not do so too. i don wanna spoil a relationship just for a very useless PW.useless cos we will never use it and impractical.

one week almost gone. nothing done. i must get studies back on track,since i accumulate all my doubts during the term. i wanna mug..but still gotta read finish that bloody book. gee.

wanna go out with pingting soon leh. haii. alway a very happy and enjoyable trip with her =) perhaps some distance is a good thing too. wanna go out with yZ too yeh,my psy doc. hahas.

alright takkaire =)

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