Happy Birthday yZ.

But sorry i cant be happy to deliver my well-wishes.

today the aces at jj was a total mess. performance wise, so-so.
took a cab with glenda (!) back to css. their performances were not much better off. but i was back to see teachers and friends. so its okay.

i realised, i dunno how to answer a SIMPLE & a most common question.

"how are you ?"

the most usual answer will be "fine". but i don give that. what for when i am not fine at all ?

but, does that mean i must pour all my grief and pain out to the smiling enquirer? that will bring down the atmosphere vastly.

mrs ng-tan, benazir, lao huang,ms phoon, mr singh asked me. i gave different answers to all.
-.-

at that precise moment, how could i summarise all my feelings?
but sometimes the word "fine" is necessary, cos you wont want them to worry unnecessarily for you..

btw.. mrs leong.. i wont disappoint you.. but still, i am not studying for my sake.. i wanna bring her good news..

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MY PHONE GOT STOLEN. ON THE WAY TO JP AFTER LUNCH WITH 4-1 PEEPS ON BUS 178. SOME STUPID FUCKER IDIOT BASTARD RUBBISH SHIT STOLE MY PHONE. I DOZE OFF AND HAD MY BAG OPENED & UNGUARDED. THERE WERE LITTLE PPL & NO ONE NOTICE.

STOLEN

..... just feel utmost helpless. was stranded at jp. cant rmb any numbers except my house,my godma house,ah bao & pt. i tried calling ahbao with public phone, she didnt pick up.. i called my phone.. off...

Tears came

Helplessness dominate

Composure lost

went to godma house..so i can get her to call her son to ask him to terminate the number since it was bought under his name.. she was not there either..

everything went wrong

HOW NOW?!

dad just scolded me last week for buying the new phone.. btw my stolen phone is only 5 weeks old. now it is gone.. i suppose i must buy it again?

just check my account book

ha-ha-ha

i actually spent 3k in 9 months time.

ever since applied the nets card so i can buy the laptop, i had been flaunting my "wealth".

i thought i will just stop after the near 2k laptop purchase. but it had only meant an never ending beginning.

at this rate, i cant go to uni at all. dad alrd said he cant afford. so i can only depend on own.

cant pin hopes on sch-ship either.
with such results & resources?

yeah right continue to dream BIG!

maybe for my 18th bday, all of u just give me angbao will do.

HA.HA.HA

the thing that i have always been afraid to lose, is phone.
why didnt the person take the camera or wallet instead??

do you know how much memory the phone contains!

the contacts! it means relationships of past & persent!

the messages! it means touched moments & feelings!

the videos! it means the smiles of pillars of my world!

it captures all my PAST. and thats when i gotta change phone, there is unwillingness. cos i gotta chose and give up memories. since i cant possibly bring all photos & videos over..

i hope my number can be retained. i have always wanted to never change number.
there is this hope.
hope that if many years down the road, a someone, when want to contact me and i will be there.

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现在，我喜欢群体中做那个搞笑又白痴的，来制造一点我没有的快乐。已不知道这一
切是真是假。只知道，一个人时，是不懂得笑的欢乐。难怪谐星都是悲哀的。。。


现在还真象个失意又不得志的人。

想逃。

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Read between the lines
Whats fucked up and everything is alright

-Boulevard of Broken Dreams 8:24 PM