My immaturity and intolerance once again got the better of me. Sometime when i am conditioned to the school setting, i'm really oblivious to how life ought to be.

Walk a little slower, look at that scenery that offers you more meanings, rather than hurrying to the next venue.

Spare fewer stares for your notes, talk to your friends who are far more interactive and interesting.

But i'm not doing it. For as long as i am in this mad system, i wont and cant slow down to appreciate whats around. But then again, i only have got less than 3 months in this system. So no matter how much i abhor it, i must learn to "enjoy" and "savor every moment". Why did i put " ? Because if you just ask any As student, none will say they are enjoying their revision, that is if they have started which i have not, sadly.

This system is really too extreme in its paper-chase behaviour, like a never ending rat race. Running this race will make you breathless, esp if you see some are walking slowly but yet you have to run desperately to catch up. And that is precisely, yours sincerely, ME. lol.. It is apparent that i not only cant catch up in real life running. rahh.

But then again... Being able to sit in front of the screen and typing my complaints, is already a kind of blessing. There are really abundant of unfortunates around... But often, because all these do not exert a direct influence on us, we dont give a damn, for there are other more important things on our personal agenda. I'm guilty of that, are you?

ALL of us, are self fish, just to varying extent. But thats normal cos all of us are humans, not saints, or the very rare almost saint-like ppl (like joc!! =D ). However, as we live and grow, we should seriously attempt to expand our human capacity by shedding our self fish nature and shower more concerns on other issues, that don really affect us, but are important. Spare a thought for that.

Nevertheless, i really have got to get my act together and study my ass out for As. Heh really crude but i'm not exactly gentle in any way right? haha. Hmm. Have you ever wonder why you study hard? For jobs? For personal fulfillment? Or is it not knowing what else to do besides mugging hard?

As for me... it is a kind of family responsibility. HAHA. sound so old fashioned. Being the eldest child,no having no brothers but only a sister whom i dunno whether is she going to continue her studies, i really gotta make sure i get a decent cert so as to get a decent job. Whoa, so utilitarian, you may say. Honestly if i'm born with a silver spoon, i wont give a damn about studies. But this kindda life looks kind of meaningless yeh? So maybe i should be "glad" of having my current family settings... Though i hope it could be more normal, like all of you out there...

Anw, decided to reinstall tagboard. Nobody tag i wont care lar; since i didnt tell much people in the first place. So to those who drop by run by crawl by, show your presence! so that when i emo i can be more comforted. hahah. hmmm, at least i know ms Ha and xiaobai read my blog. Why acknowledge them? cos i think it is a torture for anyone to read my entries. ha. to my friends out there, if don wan read, just tag okay? Lol. It is a heinous crime not to tag while you are here, cos later i will misunderstand for not being concerned with my pathetic life. hahaha xD

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