I am completely exhausted by today's run. It lasted about 1h 45 mins!!!!! O.O THE LONGEST RUN IN MY LIFE. oh gosh. But there is a little bit of walking la, cos really cant tahan. Ran up and down the Chinese Garden pagoda. Lols, it made me feel so giddy.However, upon completion, feel a sense of achievement ya. heh.
It is qixuan bday today. Jennifer tried to push her face down when she was blowing off the candle. But it was not really "successful" la cos the cake was too small. So let me show you whats a real one should be! ahahah!
Today's training was a tiring one.. My legs feel so numb now. After missing 2 trainings, today's one really very hiong. Firstly went for a run outside, the girls route. Then, its a long interval. 800m + 400m, 3 sets. I think none of us met the required timing. Honestly,i feel the girls team is quite weak.. I can see the guys go almost all out for the intervals part. Great =)
I realised usually when i am running, my mind is blank. Think that should not be the way. I ought to think of sth that can sustain my run and moltivate and push me. So today, thadd was on my mind =) His story, his preseverance, his determination. Nope i dunno him.. but that only show the greatness of him isnt? Able to empower ppl that do not know him =)
Hmm, i think i pant unnecessarily during runs, giving me the illusion that i am tired and have to slow down. This is bad..Gotta change!
I can see the improvement in the team overall now =) Though i tend to set overly hight expectation on discipline and too used to compare to Quek's style. Heh. And Jennifer was telling me i was carrying that pissed off face. arghh. i don mean too, people! ><
My face makes ppl misunderstand me so easily. geeee.
Alright shall start by announcing my GP grade- D(55.5) Hmm.. Lousy la, but all the while i was having this type of result back in css. heh. When can i ever write a proper essay sia...
Track training at the afternoon. The highlight is not on the training part. After the training, all the guys and girls sit down together and talked about the track conduct. We set down some expectation and ground rules, like exercises that we must all complete, attendance, punctuality, FOOD BAN.
OH MY! haha.. I love fries,wedges,ice cream and chocolates! So now i will be deprived of all these. And guess who's the one who suggested this and initiate a change in the track system?? MEEEEEEE -.-
Well, i really want to restructure the team to a more focus and disciplined one. Basically, i suggested all the stuff that the athletics did when they were under Quek's time. Hmm.. They seem quite willing to follow and look upon me for instructions. Surprise surprise. Good leaders need followers. Though i am not captain or exco whatsoever, but i feel a calling to change the current inefficient system. Morever, if all are moltivated, i will stand to gain by improving too. The school and teachers are not showing support.Not expecting them to do so, since i think their focus is only on council. Many ccas leaders are struggling, esp sports leaders ba. The limited funds, resources, venues.. I don think whatever problems or suggestions made during Leaders Camp are noted. Yes i see Mr. crc taking down notes, but i need to see action. Action gotta be fast. How long more does the sports ccas have to their tournament? Ans as you know, sports training is very time-consuming and taxing on the body.
Nevertheless, i am used to this type of "Against all odds" situation. This give rise to Fighting Spirit. The approvals from the track members are heart warming. I do hope we can all sustain this type of perseverance and enthusiasm towards training. It is time to work hard, esp for all X-try people. All these while when we are slacking, they are slogging their guts out.
I see hope. I don crave for results or miracles, cause the time is too short. I yearn for the best we can be. And, to change JJC Track Team falling reputation. We are a committed and disciplined group of people!
This gives me a feeling: Back to Quek's Time! YAYY xD
ps. While running the rounds today, d@rr3_ said jiayou while ran past him. woots! Cheering is paramount to runners! or all sports people. Actually he was there to encourage his bballers, but maybe see me run as if out of breath ba. HA. but its nice! Initially i thought he doesnt have good impression on me. since you know, my forbidding black natural face. Does he know i am the dumb girl who like his friends for 5 years ma? o.O zzz! Anyway, thanks! So people, please generously give cheers whenever you see people running ya? =))
The blow will come tml. If someone who didnt get to where she should be, but yet still shine as brightly as she should have be at here, why cant i? we may not be of the same caliber, but definitely similar.
i will, shine. in times to come. Go
from tuck blog..
Sometimes, we try too hard.Sometimes, we try too hard. Try too hard to make our ideas heard and make others agree with us. Never really considered the other alternatives, never really listen to what others have to say. Never really wondered what others thought of us. Never.
Sometimes, we try too hard. Try too hard to be the best. All the late nights and all the mugging, only to find someone else doing better, rendering you second best. Never thought about losing. But what's the point when no one really cares about you. Is that what's to happen?
Sometimes, we try too hard. Try too hard to please. All the sacrifices and the things we have done. All the things we've done replied with a callous look. Just needing a little appreciation. A tall order? Is it worth all the trouble? Is it better to be a little more selfish and think more about ourselves?
Sometimes, we try too hard. Try to hard to be perfect. Just had to get that extra stroke or to give that extra effort to make it perfect. Not content with being second best, not content to be sufficient, always need to be on the dot. But, always let down by the cruelty of reality. Perfect is the word.
Sometimes, we try too hard. Try too hard to be find happiness. The latest Nokia phone, the latest Adidas shoes and the most updated Laptop. Only to find that without these, our lives are actually just void. It might not be the newest or the most trendy because happiness is from within, not from what others say.
Sometimes, we try too hard. Try too hard to juggle our daily life. Family, friends, tutorials and CCAs just to name a few. Don't know what everyone's expected of us, don't know who's in control. Just going with the flow.
Sometimes, we try too hard. Try too hard to find something call self-identity. A sense of belonging. A feeling of being yourself, against all the obstacles and challenges. Tired of being a nobody, feeling the fatigue of finding yourself in this concrete jungle.
Sometimes, we try too hard. Try too hard to compare. RJC, HCJC, VJC. Harvard, Cambridge, NUS. 1st, 2nd, 3rd. Bungalow, Condo, HDB. Compare to make progress. Compare to gauge how good we are. All these just to show off or just to shed some pity on ourselves? A dumb rat race to nowhere.
hope this is not infringe of copyright. lol. but it struck me. anyway, i hope this can be passed as a form of acknowledgment. ^^
